Thursday, November 12, 2015

Nirvana :: I Hate Myself and I Want to Die

Nirvana :: I Hate Myself and I Want to Die

I decided to bring this post back to life in honor of the new Montage of Heck collection that just came out. It's hard not to see these releases (see also With the Lights Out) as blatant attempts to capitalize on Nirvana's 'legacy,' which Kurt probably wouldn't be too happy with.

It's a bad joke to see Nirvana shirts in stores being sold alongside Guns N Roses shirts and chains and leather wristbands. To underline this very clear point, Axel Rose is a person who penned the lyrics "immigrants and faggots, they make no sense to me. They come to our country and think they'll do as they please" in the racist, homophobic song "One in a Million." I don't even want to mention whatever this is. Kurt stood for a lot of things that are forgotten. His music was more punk rock and folk than metal. Most glaringly, he was an anti-consumer and anti-authoritarian in a commercial machine. Most under-appreciated, he was incredibly outspoken about LGBT rights and he was a feminist in an industry of misogyny and overblown masculinity.

Kurt Cobain is remembered in a really weird way. Imagine what we would think of him if he had actually recorded the acoustic album he was talking about doing with R.E.M. frontman Michael Stipe and went on to make more albums long after people stopped caring. His life was too short for him to have had a lot of b-roll lying around, which is why these posthumous releases are just putting out whatever half-stoned demo Kurt committed to tape. But there are a lot of decent songs lying around, which is why I initially made this mix.

à la 2011:
The reissue of the 20 year old Nevermind inspired me to post a collection of Nirvana b-sides and unreleased songs. So, if the With the Lights Out collection was too dense and at times impossible to listen to, try this on. The title of the mix comes from the joke name that Kurt Cobain wanted to give In Utero.

Nirvana :: I Hate Myself and I Want to Die
Get the tracks here
  1. You Know You're Right
  2. Sappy
  3. Sliver
  4. I Hate Myself And I Want To Die 
  5. Been A Son
  6. Even In His Youth
  7. Kurt Stoned on the Phone
  8. Opinion
  9. Oh, The Guilt (Lighter Version)
  10. Pen Cap Chew
  11. Curmudgeon
  12. Old Age
  13. Endless, Nameless
  14. Polly (New Wave) 
  15. Verse Chorus Verse
  16. If You Must
  17. Token Eastern Song
  18. Blandest
  19. Talk to Me [Live]
  20. Aneurysm
  21. Spank Thru
  22. Gallons Of Rubbing Alcohol Flow Through The Strip

Check out other posts about Nirvana:

 Nirvana :: Nevermind...Well, Whatever (Unmastered Reissue Butch Vig and John Peel Mixes)